CRPS SOUNDTRACK: Hurt

HURT

by Nine Inch Nails and also covered amazingly haunting by Johnny Cash

Ive always known the original Nine Inch Nails (NIN) original of this song and never really paid the lyrics much attention. Now looking at it from the point of view of a person with Chronic pain, I see this song in a whole new light. There are two main thoughts of what this song is about. One is that it is about recovering from Drug addiction and the other is conceptual and about the character of the songs Album, The Downward Spiral, who has attempted suicide and is contemplating his lack of legacy.

It wasn’t until the Johnny cash version came out just before his death that I really fell in love with this song in a big way. Cash’s version is so haunting and full of pain. It has the power to bring you to tears and make your heart ache. NIN front man, Trent Reznor has said of Mr Cash’s version of his song “I pop the video in, and wow… Tears welling, silence, goose-bumps… Wow. [I felt like] I just lost my girlfriend, because that song isn’t mine anymore… ” This version is often thought of as a Cash Original. In fact I for a long time did not realise it was the same song. Its. Just. That. Damn. Good!

[Verse 1]
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that’s real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

[Chorus]
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

[Verse 2]
I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar’s chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

[Chorus]
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

[Outro]
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way…

I hope you are feeling pain free today. Thanks.

Resources:

https://genius.com/Nine-inch-nails-hurt-lyrics: Seen 22/12/2017

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CRPS SOUNDTRACK: Comfortably Numb

 

CRPS SOUNDTRACK: Comfortably Numb

A song by Pink Floyd

 

Ok so I just love this song and when I got CRPS I suddenly understood it on a whole new level. I really relate to lyrics like “Now I’ve got that feeling once again, I can’t explain, you would not understand, this is not how I am”. It’s the feeling I get when a big flare comes along and you try to explain your pain to someone who has no idea what extreme pain is. In fact, according to an interview with the writer/singer, Roger Waters, most people
assumed the song was about drug abuse, or more strangely, Masturbation… Yep!

 

I also relate to the title, “Comfortably Numb”. For me it’s the feeling I get when my pain medication kicks in, the pain eases and I relax a bit. To be honest the doped out feeling can be bliss after such extreme pain. It’s like chill out time that only pain sufferers can understand.

 

According to Waters, the song is about being sick with a fever when he was a child. “I remember having the flu or something, an infection with a temperature of 105 and being delirious. It wasn’t like the hands looked like balloons, but they looked way too big, frightening.” He also stated in a later interview that the present part of the song is about being on tour and thinking he had a stomach disorder when in fact he had Hepatitis and didn’t know it.

 

I am going to post the original video but I would also like to post a cover version by the Scissor Sisters as it is one of my fave covers of all time.  Let’s just say it’s a very different version of the song. Id love to know your thoughts on both versions and what you take away from each of them.

 

“Comfortably Numb”

 

Hello,

Is there anybody in there?

Just nod if you can hear me.

Is there anyone at home?

 

Come on now

I hear you’re feeling down

Well, I can ease your pain

And get you on your feet again

 

Relax

I’ll need some information first

Just the basic facts

Can you show me where it hurts?

 

There is no pain, you are receding

A distant ship smoke on the horizon

You are only coming through in waves

Your lips move but I can’t hear what you’re saying

When I was a child I had a fever

My hands felt just like two balloons

Now I’ve got that feeling once again

I can’t explain, you would not understand

This is not how I am

I have become comfortably numb

 

I have become comfortably numb

 

O.K.

Just a little pin prick

There’ll be no more aaaaaaaah!

But you may feel a little sick

 

Can you stand up?

I do believe it’s working, good

That’ll keep you going through the show

Come on, it’s time to go.

 

There is no pain you are receding

A distant ship smoke on the horizon

You are only coming through in waves

Your lips move but I can’t hear what you’re saying

When I was a child

I caught a fleeting glimpse

Out of the corner of my eye

I turned to look but it was gone

I cannot put my finger on it now

The child is grown

The dream is gone

I have become comfortably numb.

 

And now for something a little different but damn good. Here is a link to the official video if you want a look. I couldn’t post it for some reason.

I hope you are pain free or comfortably numb today. xx

Resources:

http://www.songfacts.com/detail.php?id=1697, Seen 28/06/2016

http://www.songfacts.com/detail.php?lyrics=1697, Seen 28/06/2016

Merry Christmas and a PAIN FREE New Year

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Merry Christmas to all of you amazing CRPS sufferers and supporters. I hope that you have a pain free day and are able to enjoy your day with family and loved ones.

I know that the lead up to the big day can be quite stressful for us and that stress often leads to more pain.  So please consider taking it easy and pacing yourself so that you can enjoy yourself.

I’m kind of expecting to be in pain after not taking my own advice. OOPS!!!! I did also try to rip my little toe off with a door. It hurt like hell and was the better of my two CRPS feet. But, I will make the most of the day anyway and spend my day sitting with family and enjoy spending time with them, watching the kids open their presents eating more than I should and drinking my elder flower cordial and sparkling mineral water.

Have a wonderful Christmas. xxx

P.S. This is my fave Xmas song.

Wham: Last Christmas

 

CRPS SOUNDTRACK: Everybody Hurts

I have to say that music has gotten me through some long and lonely nights. Some nights I have felt like my life is pointless and whats the pint in it all. Its funny when you see music in a new light. Overnight I was watching Rage on the ABC and the Guest Programmer put on R.E.M’s Everybody hurts and I really understood what they were saying. Im thinking when this happens Ill do a post like this and make it a part of my CRPS SOUNDTRACK posts. Ill try to not let it all be too serious.

“Everybody Hurts”
R.E.M

When your day is long
And the night, the night is yours alone
When you’re sure you’ve had enough
Of this life, well hang onDon’t let yourself go
‘Cause everybody cries
And everybody hurts sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong
Now it’s time to sing along
When your day is night alone (Hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go (Hold on)
If you think you’ve had too much
Of this life, well hang on

Everybody hurts
Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts
Don’t throw your hand, oh no

Don’t throw your hand
If you feel like you’re alone
No, no, no, you are not alone

If you’re on your own in this life
The days and nights are long
When you think you’ve had too much of this life to hang on

Well, everybody hurts sometimes
Everybody cries
Everybody hurts sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes

So hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts

Lyrics are from

Why, This Disease Could Be Systematic…

Whenever I’m reading something on CRPS and I see the word “systematic” I feel the urge to follow it up with “Hydromatic…Ultramatic…. Why, it could be greased lightnin”. and then I continue with what I’m reading.
And they say its all in our head!