Insomnia: We are NOT friends!

Simply put, Insomnia sucks!

That statement alone could be all I write here and this post would be complete. But I feel like talking about it a bit so here goes.

For me I either have Insomnia or a I sleep non stop. I’ve had a few stints where I slept normally and it was lovely. Right now its 5am and I have been awake since 3am so really the 3 hours of sleep I’ve had is a good night for me. My longest period of no sleep was 6 days. I was a mess at the end of it. After 3 days it starts to mess with your head a bit and by 6 you feel insanity creep in and your a walking zombie.

I have read all the literature on how to get to sleep and create a sleep positive environment and for me it doesn’t work. Simply by laying there trying to sleep, I will not fall asleep. I get frustrated too easily and it just keeps me awake longer and longer. It just doesn’t work for me, because damn Insomnia keeps getting in the way. I have found that if I am going to sleep then my best chance is to distract my self and the insomnia until I get drowsy and drop off to sleep. To do this I might read a book or on my phone. Watching a movie or Netflix is great as well. These are my go to distractions because I can just drop off when I need to without my brain/insomnia realising what’s happening because its too busy relaxing to a few episodes of Brooklyn Nine-Nine. (One of the best show’s ever!) I have to say that even writing this is relaxing me enough to make me drowsy and I mean that in a good way. I may get a little nap in before getting up. But I better stop talking about it in case good ole insomnia realises what’s going on.

I do worry about what this lack of sleep is doing to me long term. I always see articles about what lack of sleep can do to your health and I worry it gets in the road of the long life I had planned. Even now I am noticing the effect it has son the way I look. I have permanent darkness under my eyes and I am finding that I need heavier makeup to hide it when I don’t want to look haggard. I am even finding a few grey hairs creeping in and I put it down to being worn out. So it this is happening on the outside then I worry about the inside. Perhaps this is something I need to work on improving.

Anyway, Mini rant over. In short I wish that insomnia would take its self off somewhere else and I might try for a little more sleep.

Sleep well people. 🙂 Thanks for reading.

 

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I Love My Facebook Groups!

Everybody needs support when they are going through a hard time and the thing with CRPS is that no matter how supportive friends and family are, there is no way they can fully understand the hell that this disease causes.  I really struggled with this in the beginning and felt very isolated and daunted by what I was facing. Then I discovered Facebook Groups for people with CRPS. The Aussie and New Zealander support group was an instant match for me. I’ve joined others that have been great, but This group has become my rock.  We laugh, support each other and most of all we don’t judge. Its ok for me to have a whinge when I am at a low. Its welcomed when I post silly but relevant pictures. Probably the best bit is the people I have met in person and the friendships that i have made. How would I have made it this far without Facebook??? No wonder this used to be called the suicide disease, I often wonder if the suicide statistics have changed for CRPS since the birth of the internet and Facebook.

I hope everyone is doing well. Im currently flaring and my pain meds keep me awake. Im hoping to sleep soon.  xx

Insomnia: Doin it all night long!

One of the worst parts of having CRPS is the insomnia. When I’m in a pain flare is when it’s worst. Last week I didn’t sleep for 3 night’s straight and by the end of the 3rd day I was a mess. Apparently where the cranky nerves run up into the brain, it causes certain areas to get just as angry. One of these is the sleep area of the brain. It’s like my brain knows I’m sooooo tired, but it won’t flick that switch.

I won’t write too much tonight. Oops, its 4.45am so not night after all. But my fingers are just too cranky and not liking me typing. So Ill add a few funny things I found on pinterest to amuse you. They made me smile, but then I understand. I guess in an hour I’ll get up and walk the dog to the café for breakfast….If my feet allow me. Lots of coffee!!!