Simply put, Insomnia sucks!
That statement alone could be all I write here and this post would be complete. But I feel like talking about it a bit so here goes.
For me I either have Insomnia or a I sleep non stop. I’ve had a few stints where I slept normally and it was lovely. Right now its 5am and I have been awake since 3am so really the 3 hours of sleep I’ve had is a good night for me. My longest period of no sleep was 6 days. I was a mess at the end of it. After 3 days it starts to mess with your head a bit and by 6 you feel insanity creep in and your a walking zombie.
I have read all the literature on how to get to sleep and create a sleep positive environment and for me it doesn’t work. Simply by laying there trying to sleep, I will not fall asleep. I get frustrated too easily and it just keeps me awake longer and longer. It just doesn’t work for me, because damn Insomnia keeps getting in the way. I have found that if I am going to sleep then my best chance is to distract my self and the insomnia until I get drowsy and drop off to sleep. To do this I might read a book or on my phone. Watching a movie or Netflix is great as well. These are my go to distractions because I can just drop off when I need to without my brain/insomnia realising what’s happening because its too busy relaxing to a few episodes of Brooklyn Nine-Nine. (One of the best show’s ever!) I have to say that even writing this is relaxing me enough to make me drowsy and I mean that in a good way. I may get a little nap in before getting up. But I better stop talking about it in case good ole insomnia realises what’s going on.
I do worry about what this lack of sleep is doing to me long term. I always see articles about what lack of sleep can do to your health and I worry it gets in the road of the long life I had planned. Even now I am noticing the effect it has son the way I look. I have permanent darkness under my eyes and I am finding that I need heavier makeup to hide it when I don’t want to look haggard. I am even finding a few grey hairs creeping in and I put it down to being worn out. So it this is happening on the outside then I worry about the inside. Perhaps this is something I need to work on improving.
Anyway, Mini rant over. In short I wish that insomnia would take its self off somewhere else and I might try for a little more sleep.
Sleep well people. 🙂 Thanks for reading.