I have to say that music has gotten me through some long and lonely nights. Some nights I have felt like my life is pointless and whats the pint in it all. Its funny when you see music in a new light. Overnight I was watching Rage on the ABC and the Guest Programmer put on R.E.M’s Everybody hurts and I really understood what they were saying. Im thinking when this happens Ill do a post like this and make it a part of my CRPS SOUNDTRACK posts. Ill try to not let it all be too serious.
When your day is long
And the night, the night is yours alone
When you’re sure you’ve had enough
Of this life, well hang onDon’t let yourself go
‘Cause everybody cries
And everybody hurts sometimes
Sometimes everything is wrong
Now it’s time to sing along
When your day is night alone (Hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go (Hold on)
If you think you’ve had too much
Of this life, well hang on
Take comfort in your friends
Don’t throw your hand, oh no
Don’t throw your hand
If you feel like you’re alone
No, no, no, you are not alone
If you’re on your own in this life
The days and nights are long
When you think you’ve had too much of this life to hang on
Well, everybody hurts sometimes
Everybody hurts sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes
So hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Lyrics are from
Despite how much CRPS has taken over my life, I think it is so important to have something that I can look forwards to. Be it a movie coming out, a holiday, seeing your friend who lives away. I think it keeps us going and looking forwards to the future. After tomorrow night I will be looking for my next thing to look forwards to!
So after a year of not much happening except pain and limitations, I am about to go as wild as a 30yr old woman with CRPS in 3 limbs can go. Especially as this excited girl is in need of a ketamine infusion that will be staring a week later. I AM GOING TO SEE MY FAVE BAND, MUSE!!!!!!!!!! Yep for this band I turn into a complete fan girl. Tomorrow night I will be sitting in my awesome seats (fan pre-sale tickets) right by the stage as my fave band show me why I love them. I’ll be medicating myself up and going all out. I’ll take the flare that will probably follow. After all I have an infusion the next week. I’ll be fine.
So I’m happy not to be in the mosh pit because I cant be up front and my tickets will more than make up for that. I’ll be much closer to the stage and comfy while I’m at it. Standing in line while I buy piles of merchandise will be a challenge. I will also probably hobble around the back of the Adelaide Entertainment centre in hope of meeting the band as well. So again, that infusion will be well timed.
I haven’t seen MUSE in three years since they last came to Australia. I had two tickets to the first of two shows and because the second ticket ended up going to a friend who gave me money for it, I was able to buy the last ticket to the second show just hours before the start. I was so happy. MUSE two nights in a row. I am a little sad that I can’t follow them around the country like I originally planned. Damn CRPS!!!
When I was burnt and in the burns unit my sister went and bought me their latest album, The 2nd Law. It came out while I was in hospital. Their music got me through that time and through a lot of the past year. So in a way, they saved me from going into a dark place over this horrible disease.
I’m just so excited for tomorrow night. I just hope I don’t flare until after. I will take it easy it the lead up. I’ll report back on how I went. Xx
All Pictures are from the last tour 15 Dec 2010, Rod Laver Arena, Melbourne and are owned by me